It turns out I actually did tear-all the way back (I wouldn’t wish this on anyone, not even my worst enemy-if I had one). The pain is like none other.
I have to see two different specialist before my (angel of) a GP doctor refers me to “the one”.
He truly is the best one out there. I’m so lucky to live in a place with so many great medical (geniuses) doctor’s and surgeons. Unfortunately we have really been needing them lately (beyond grateful that all has gone well in the end but we have been experiencing some less than fun and light times as a family with this lingering birth injury and our oldest’s son’s surgery as well…).
Anyways, this doctor I’m referred to is truly amazing (and what he is lacking in bedside manners he sure is making up in skills). He tells me that while pushing my fourth baby out, my already vulnerable skin (after all my lovely babies) forcefully stretched and became VERY thin and fragile (especially with the speed this last one came through with!!!), causing the very next little extra “strain” on the area to in fact rupture “completely”.
My few stitches in my front “lady parts” are fine and have healed nicely-it’s the middle and back that tore. A 3rd and (yikes) fourth degree tear is definitely no “cake walk” and shouldn’t be messed with or by any means be taken lightly…
My whole “quality of life” could change with this injury. I could loose my ability to control my (hm…) should we call them “bathroom” needs, not to mentioned to fear of infection and the ultimate threat sepsis (here we go again…who remembers what happened after my baby girl was born).
This star surgeon want to try everything in his power to avoid extensive and major surgery. But in order to “save” my “nether regions” it might have to come to that in the end after all.
I’m hopeful it won’t…
I mean who want to have major surgery! (Butt surgery as my family “lovingly” call it nonetheless)..??
There are risks with this surgery and complications could and would “ruin” me (see above…) and the recovery is brutal and, loooong and extensive.
I vote for trying everything in this specialty surgeon’s power before we have to go that route.
He has ideas of everything from more permanent stitches- outpatient procedures and even Botox (say what???)
We spend months trying to heal wounds that in the end are just too deep…
Wounds that are in such a sensitive, infection prone area that after a spring full of pain ends in early summer discussions of the BIG surgery (the one we all dreaded) after all.